April 6th, 2020
Went over to Anne and Johns to take salon mail and have a change of scenery. It was so nice to sit and talk for an hour. It was so beautiful and sunny and right when I got home it got cloudy so I am so glad I was out while the lake looked like the ocean. Im currently making a family size frozen mac n cheese because I accidentally bought the jumbo size when I did online ordering for pick up. Whoops! Ive been craving it so I guess I will just eat it forever now.
Anne told me last week her father was in the hospital for some unrelated cover illness, and they were doing testing. After they did the testing they found a very aggressive type of lymphoma in his abdomen and basically if he didn't start treatment in the next day or two, he would only have a few days to live. He chose to not receive treatment. I feel sick for my best friend. I am angry at the world because she hasn't been able to go visit him because of the hospital restrictions. Now, tomorrow, she will get a few minutes with him to say goodbye. How the fuck are people still going outside and socializing or having parties while people aren't able to see their loved ones who have days to live? How do these people live with themselves? I just want to punch them all in their fucking teeth. My friend is hurting. Of course nobody gets it unless its directly related to them. They don't see the big deal. The big deal is the sooner we can flatten the curve and be done with this, the sooner people can say goodbye to their loved ones appropriately and be there for them. I am just a mess. This isn't fair, and I just. I don't know what to do for Anne. I know realistically there is nothing that I can do but god damn it I want to.
April 7th, 2020
Im in a weird mood. Happy because its my baby niece's birthday but sad because of what I know Anne has to go through today.
April 10th, 2020
Obviously I haven't been very consistent that last few days. I have been feeling very angry at the world for the situation Anne has been in. Thats just how I am, when my friends are hurting, I hurt and want to fix it. Unfortunately, her dad passed away this morning. I cannot fathom what she is going through. Im going to go over to take more mail and pick up some things that were sent to her house. I won't stay too long because thats probably the last thing she wants, extra people around... I don't really have a lot else to say today honestly. I will try to be better about putting more entries out. Just needed a few days.
Ok, Bye, Love You!
April 10th, 2020
Obviously I haven't been very consistent that last few days. I have been feeling very angry at the world for the situation Anne has been in. Thats just how I am, when my friends are hurting, I hurt and want to fix it. Unfortunately, her dad passed away this morning. I cannot fathom what she is going through. Im going to go over to take more mail and pick up some things that were sent to her house. I won't stay too long because thats probably the last thing she wants, extra people around... I don't really have a lot else to say today honestly. I will try to be better about putting more entries out. Just needed a few days.
Ok, Bye, Love You!
<3 you!
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